Longing For Another I

I place my head in the crook of His neck with no hesitation 

I don’t know how long I have been here, but I pray I am never taken

His presence consumes me like a consuming and soothing fire 

Having Him near me is all that I desire 

But inside me there still stirs a deep ache 

A longing for another I but of that I don’t know what to make 

I know in Him I have all that I could ever need

But for some reason I find myself voicing to Him my greed 

“Father, I long for another to shoulder the weight of my humanity

Someone I can stand with to make me a better me” 

“Daughter, don't you know that I am the one who gave you this deep desire?

I have a plan for you, but for now stay with me. Let me draw you in tighter” 

I am able to be with Him more fully because I know He has something in store

He has a plan for my heart and the love that it needs to pour 

Times passes and I am content with my longing for I know its place 

But I am struck with nerves as He says its time to move from this space

He says, “Your other I is in the garden and he and I have been walking

And oh daughter how he expresses for you a deep utter longing” 

My Father affirms my readiness but I know I will still have a need 

I don’t know what is next or what things it will heed 

I walk with Him through this garden, eyes closed, being guided by His hand 

Once we stop my knees are weak and I don’t know how long I can stand

My Father says, “Open your eyes” and there my other I’s eyes staring into me 

I am overwhelmed with peace as I see what he sees in me 

He sees my Father who he knows as deeply as I 

I can’t stop seeing my Father through him and I don’t try 

I know in this moment that this is how it was made to be

Giving and receiving from my Beloved and love for all eternity